I’ve never felt comfortable with resolutions.
As a teenager we’d have a family meal early in the year, mum would go around the table asking for our resolutions; it always made me sick to my stomach.
I don’t know if it’s because I knew failing to follow through on a resolution would lead to guilt and possibly even shaming from my family. I felt as though voicing something trapped me. Forced me into something.
One year I didn’t say anything so I was roped into my mom’s resolution to go on a health kick. It wasn’t something I felt was necessary for me and I didn’t commit.
I don’t want to start 2020 half heartadly attempting to stay on track on a resolution. I want to start it more purposefully. I have goals for the year and I’m going to work towards them in my own time. And because it’s on my time I can’t fail them I can simply delay their completion.
This year I want to
- create content I am proud of
- get better at communicating my needs and my limitations
- improve my podcast editing skills
- grow stuff in the garden
- bake more
- reduce the amount of waste I generate
- pass my uni subjects
- be more actively aware of my emotions and moods
- avoid buying new things and instead get stuff second hand
- actively try and work in my field
- be honest about how I am feeling
